Does Religion Really Matter?

So here it is, something that has been bothering my mind lately, so yeah I have my sister went to the church for just once? and already loving it. It is not that I don't like the idea of her converting, it is just that I don't want her to convert just because she went to a church where it is more to the fun rather than the religious purpose. Sorry no offense but I literally think that charismatic is just bullshit, big fat bullshit, using all the fun to attract the youngster because probably they hate the old traditional church or temple or the rest. I feel that they are just taking the advantage of that. I do also think that it is going away from the main purpose of praising and serving the God in this case, I mean everyone is here just to have fun and running away from the whole purpose. I mean come on, if you want to have fun, why don't you just go to K-box or any other similar thing, because what is the difference here, I mean how many of those people there are actually there to really serve the God, how many people are actually there to praise the God wholeheartedly? Nobody knows. But to my point of view, this is not the way to attract more visitors and members. Religion is all about heart, I sometimes feel that it is because somebody doesn't really have enough education or knowledge about their own religion that they get attracted to other religions just because they offer more fun, more modernize and you feel like you are cooler on the other side. I have met lots and lots of people who tried (so hard) to get me to convert, giving me the reason that (okay, this part, I don't mean to offend anyone or any religion) but yeah, telling me that He is the only Savior that one could only trust in order to go to heaven, but come on, there is no point in telling me this because I am not believing this, I don't believe in this kind of bullshit, what is heaven anyway? I don't believe that just because one believe in a certain people, he/she will go to heaven despite of all the sins he/she had done in his/her life. I believe in karma and I totally think that I am making sense because karma is just like a reflection of what we did in our life, we do good and we do sins, and karma is like the fruit of everything we do. If we planted the good seed, then we gonna bear the good fruits but if we planted a bad seed, then probably the tree gonna die or bear a bad fruit. I also don't believe that I should listen to someone who try so hard to tell others' that what they believed in is bad, because don't your religion tell you not to say something bad about other religions? Don't your religion teach you to respect the others' belief? If your religion don't, then I probably have to tell you something, what your religion teach you is not something you have to listen to, because this is just like a basic manner and yet your religion doesn't teach you that. I mean I don't hate any religion but I am just sick of people trying to make any other religion sounds so bad. Please, if you think that your religion is really that good, then keep it to yourself, we gonna prove it when we die, because nobody could literally prove whether if there is God, whether there is heaven, whether there is hell, and whether that you are saved because you believe. No answer is provided, if one is trying to tell me that their religious books is the answer, can you tell me if God is really the person who write the book? It is all HUMAN, WHO DO SINS, that write it and claim it to be the word of God without any prove, it has been translated for over so many languages and how can one claim that everything written is true, nobody is there to clarify all these doubts, nobody is there to provide me with the answers that could satisfy me, so before you people, those who trying to get people to convert to your so-called the only one that is the right religion, you better think twice and try to decide if you could answer all these questions or doubts that I have, don't tell me just because Christmas is marked in International calendar, it is a prove that Jesus born in this world, because as someone who had learnt about Christianity before, I learnt that Jesus wasn't even born on this day, Christmas is just a celebration of the Harvest and just an occasion to show gratefulness of the farmers. And if everything mentioned in the Holy Bible is true, why miracle doesn't happen anymore, why water couldn't be turned into wine anymore? why a river couldn't be separated into two anymore? Why don't people live for over hundred and hundred of years anymore? Why? I thought those people who believe these days still believe in the same way those people written in the Bible believe? I am sorry, I just want to make it clear that I am not here to offend anyone, I am just sick of those people and if you are in my shoes, who have people keep coming to you and telling you that your religion is bad, I bet you will get pretty mad too! I thought everyone have their own right to choose in what they believe in but afterall I believe that all religions are good, it's just the people, who makes it sounds so monstrous and selfish. I believe that religions teach us to be good, but why is there so many wars just because of wars? Why? I just want to tell those people that before you go around and try to shit out of others' beliefs, you better think twice that if you are actually mature enough to consider if your religion is really better than others. It might be that you are just know knowledgeable enough about others' that make you think that others' are not as good as yours. You need to do more reading, you need to be more open minded, you need to listen and see more, you need to be more wise with what you listen, see. And to those people who are easily influenced, learn more about your religion, treasure them more, but if at the end of the day, you really think that your religion is giving you disadvantage (which I doubt will happen) or other religion could promise you something which your religion couldn't (I remind you to ask for a guarantee card, because I don't believe in promise, because since human couldn't even keep their promise, why a religion that is being spread by human could promise? And you couldn't come back and ask the person who told you that your religion promise you this and that after you are dead because you have already fallen for the trap or probably he/she is already dead too?) then you are definitely free to change your mind, but you  need to know one thing, IT IS FINE FOR YOU TO THINK THAT YOUR NEW RELIGION IS BETTER FOR YOU, BUT YOU HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT IT MIGHT NOT BE BETTER FOR OTHERS. SO STOP CHOKING ALL YOUR SHIT INTO OTHERS' THROATS.

life is bitch

Well, I have been longing to have a private own blog again.

I just want a blog that I could express out my feelings and everything! a blog where I could just write whatever thoughts that came to my mind. without a perfect grammar, perfect sentence structure or the correct vocabulary. a place where I could totally be me since I couldn't even be myself anywhere. I couldn't even be myself when I am alone. I am wondering why is this happening to me. I mean I want to live that life where I could be happy by just little simple things. Sometimes I doubt myself if I could even be happy if I got wardrobe full of Birkins and Louboutins. I seriously think that they are just my shortcut for happiness but I am craving for the real happiness by just maybe a great day with friends or my grandma's cooking. 

Sometimes I pity myself for living this kind of life but then I think it is just normal since you always want to impress. THE SOCIETY FORCES YOU TO. Okay I am going to list down why I love luxury brands so much, firstly it's to gain people's respect towards you and to make people look up at you. Well, the world is seriously that cruel. Imagine you walk inside a Fendi store with a let's say some unbranded "inspired" bag, do you think the SA *Sales Associate* will come and approach you and ask you what you want. They will probably just stare at you ironically like you would never ever have that Peek-a-Boo bag you always wanted and always stop you every single time you walked pass through that store.

But different thing if you walk in the store toting a Birkin on your arm. Especially when they are like the  Pororus or the Ostrich, all the SAs will literally just run towards you and flash you their best smiles and  ask this "Hello there, how is your day? How may I help you?". 

and you are the same person. A bag will affect how people treat you.

I am not exaggerating but that is simply the bitter truth of this cruel world. Well Fendi was just an example since I couldn't use Chanel or LV since their SAs are just way too nice. They treated me super nice when I went to their store *hehehehe* but not Miss Louise.

I went in with my newest baby and she treated me like shit that I wanted to buy the store and fired her! 

I will just go in that store next time and like I wanted this and this and this and this and "see b*tch, I CAN AFFORD ALL THE ITEMS IN YOUR STORE!" and you are just a SA. You get commission if I buy something from you. At least try to be nice lah!

The second reason I love branded bags are their quality definitely! well I have had a lot of babies from different brands and honestly speaking, I don't know about their quality! All I know is that my branded aka those that are expensive, will last longer because of the different treatments I give them! Like my newest baby, whenever I go, he will also sit on the chair, but let's talk about the other bags, they go on the floor, no matter if it was wet or muddy or whatever. They get treated like a real bag! 

Well, I am pretty sure that it is not only me who do that! Have you seen an afternoon tea party of the Indonesian ladies where literally there are 50 seats and 25 seats for the ladies and another 25 are for their Birkins, Kellies, Constances, Lindies... and the classic flaps!

I want to live a day where I could treat all my bags equally like treat a bag like a bag. not a human.

but too bad I am too poor that I only have one baby that is expensive and pretty that I could only baby him since if I ruin him, I will left with no more pretty bag. You might say why do you need a branded bag? the answer is definitely above.

I dress to impress because I have nothing else that I think I could be proud of.

Honestly I have a very low self esteem. my sad past and shits that happened to me before.

Nothing to do with my family though! I am more than happy that I am blessed with parents that love me so much and stuff *that's why they buy shoes and bags and literally spent a fortune just for my studies in singapore and australia!* *damn AUD is like 10k Rupiah though* *love you pop and mom*